Doing enough

It’s been a fun July so far. I’ve been doing a ton of things again on a personal level after a tough couple of months. I had some time off at the beginning of the month for the 4th. We’ve had a trip to visit the grandparents in Baltimore last weekend. And my friend from SF took me to go see the Fallon show on Monday.

We’ll end the month with a trip to Seattle for a wedding starting next week and then a week of remote work in San Francisco to visit family and friends. It feels good to have balance again in my life. Whereas the last couple of months really tilted towards work, this month admittedly is much more on the personal level.

This is a normal thing and I do feel like I deserve to not feel like I’m sprinting 24/7 at work all the time. But at the same time, there is a level of anxiety still that I’m not doing enough at work. It’s a weird feeling that is the result of programming myself to be this way, especially after the market of the last few years.

I always feel like I need to be doing something or else Secfi isn’t going to go well. Of course, that’s fully true. Things are moving along quite nicely at the company and we’re making a lot of progress every day. Deep down I know the most important thing is to relax a bit and make sure I don’t burn myself out. It’s something that I’m working on and will need to continue to work on.