Going easy on myself

I slept like absolute shit last night. It had been awhile that I had a night of bad sleep that wasn’t a result of going out or a social event. It was a bit of a weird day and night as I was just tired from the weekend, and just felt a bit run down. My old friend anxiety kicked in when I got into bed, and next thing I know my alarm is going off at 6:00am and I felt like I never slept all night.

I always like to beat myself up after these nights. I hate feeling like shit during work and needing 3 coffees to stay awake is not really my ideal scenario. While bad nights of sleep happen to everyone, I probably have a bit of blame on myself for not getting enough rest over the weekend and doing too much.

At the same time, beating myself up over this and other small things is a big part of the cause of all my anxiety. It can be a vicious cycle and I need to do a better job of giving myself a bit of grace. That should probably start by getting a bit of rest today as we wrap up work for the holiday.