Not a victim

I’ve held a lot of anger and frustration these last few months than I have in my life. The combination of exhaustion from new fatherhood alongside the work stress has really taken a toll. When these stressful moments hit, I have recently had a tendency to blame others for the issues. Some of the things that I’ve said over the last few weeks:

“This person is causing me a lot of stress”

“I’m tired because you made me go on that weekend trip”

I’ve unfortunately let things spiral especially the last couple of months. It’s easy to play victim here when things are tough and I’ve let that creep up in my life. This isn’t me though.

One of my mantras in life is that I am responsible for everything in life whether that is good or bad. Of course that’s never fully 100% true, but it’s something I’ve lived by the last 10 years. In other words, I take full responsibility and ownership of my life and I am in control of it.

Playing victim does me no good in life and puts the blame on other people. In reality, I am in control of my life and I need to do better. I can say no to things. I can force myself to get more rest. I can get myself to a better physical and mental state. It all starts with realization though and I hope today is a good turning point to get everything back on track.