Self-inflicted wounds

I had a tough day yesterday which translated into a horrible night of sleep. Despite having a good start to my day with a workout, my brain started spiraling a bit throughout the day. It started with just a negative (and baseless) thought given everything going on, and then my monkey brain decided to cling on and the spiraling followed.

Unfortunately it followed me to bed as well and I spent a few hours just tossing and turning thinking about work. It wasn’t a fun evening and obviously I’m impacted a bit today. I am most frustrated that this was all self-inflicted.

It’s been a stressful couple of months for me with work and the events of the world. It’s one of those periods where seemingly nothing is going out way. It’s felt like we’ve worked incredibly hard on multiple workstreams all to hit a roadblock at the end. Simply put, I’ve been working my ass off and there hasn’t been many results to show. It’s a frustrating place to be when things out of your control impact your direct results.

Of course that’s part of the gig and will continue to happen so I need to do a better job at embracing the downturns. Dwelling in work stress all day does no one any good and I can’t let these things get to me and ruin my day.